I didn't expect na hahantong lahat to sa ganito. Or should I say, na ganitong kabilis mangyayari to and na siya mismo ang gagawa nito. Nakakahiya, sa totoo lang.

He cheated on me. Yes, it's true. Kahit ako, I didn't expect na magagawa nya yun. Ako pa pwede. Pero siya? Now I know na a woman's instinct cannot really go wrong. He's been in a relationship with another girl for about four months now. I had really no idea about it. Una kasi, I have so much trust on him. Second, wala din sa personality nya na ganun. Third, nde ko naisip na magagawa yun nung girl sa akin.

There's this one girl friend kasi of ours (actually, co-worker nya yun) na I got to text with before (I think the last time was December, last year) We haven't seen each other much but we were able to meet for about 3 - 4 times. We're not that close but I can say na okay kami as friends. We even planned to watch UAAP games this coming season since she's from UP - LB. Until one time, nde na sya nagreply sa kahit anung text message ko. I was really bothered during those times na iniignore nya yung mga messages ko,(kasi by nature, ganun ako) knowing na natatanggap nya naman yung mga yun. So I felt na there's something wrong going on. Ever since kasi, nagseselos na talaga ako dun sa girl na yun eh. It's not because I am insecure about her but because i believe that she's a threat to our relationship. I texted her again to the point na kinukulit ko na talaga sya para lang magreply sa akin. I even asked their other friends if they know the reason about it. Nobody can't tell me besides this one friend whom I was able to chat with last Sunday. She told me alot of things about that girl and also about my boyfriend. I did not believe her that easily pero sinakyan ko sya sa mga sinasabi nya to check if my thoughts are true. She said na dapat maging observant ako about my boyfriend, bla bla. Hindi ko na pinansin yung mga bagay na yun kasi ang gusto ko talaga ay yung makausap ko mismo yung girl na yun. Until yesterday night, she finally replied to one of my messages. Hindi ko sya mahingan ng info.na mismong manggagaling sa kanya. She just said na if I have questions, I should go ask her now. So kahit nde ako prepared or what, prinangka ko na din sya. We've texted so many times. I've learned alot of things about the situation and most of all, all of my questions were finally answered that time..

Ayun, I've learned na she and Lhon have a relationship for about four months now (kaya pala sometimes mei kakaiba kay lhon). She said na it's not just a "relationship" for fun but relationship with committment (which means na nagtwo-time si lhon). She also said na they text each other everyday, using their Globe sims (na hindi ko man lang naisip na mei possibilityng ganun nga) and that sometimes, they see each other outside of their work. Honestly, when I heard that, I felt no anger against them. I didn't even cry about what I heard. I even told the girl na she should not worry about it (esp. about losing lhon in her life) and that I am the one who's gonna tell him that I already know it. She even said na she knows that she won't lose lhon even if I tell him about it. So from that statement, it seems that they have already built a strong and serious relationship na hindi na masisira pa - kahit ako.

I was not able to sleep that much last night and I felt so much anxieties esp. when I woke up. I talked to him immediately about it and he admitted naman na totoo lahat yun.

Hindi ko alam kung ano yung dapat kong ireact sa situation na ganun. It haven't even sinked in yet until this moment. All I know is that I am so angry about them. And that I still love Lhon so much. Ever since I am not a strong person and that I have to be one so naisip ko na eto na yung tamang pagkakataon para maipakita ko sa buong mundo na kaya ko. Pero everytime naiisip ko yung mga nangyari, I tend to go back to my real personality. It always make me realze that I can't be strong - ever.

All I want to know this time is the reason why he did that to me. Alam kong a big part of that was also beacuse of me since I've done alot to him. Pero ako lang ba lalaga alhat yun? Is it all my fault na ganun yung nangyari?

I love him so much. I don't want to lose him. We've shared alot of things. For two years, I was able to feel that I am special. I was able to have confidence about my future because I know that he'll be there for me and we'll be living together until we die.

It hurts me knowing that all of those were just lies - lies which made me hope for a thing that can never really happen.

I just wish they'll have a good life together. No hurt feelings whatsoever. No bitterness. I hope that they'll be happy and that they will not become like what we were when we were still together.

I love Lhon so much and I want him to be happy. I don't want to see him experience the same things he had with me.

So Nessa, can I ask you one favor?

Would you please take care of my BY for me? :'(

All things in this life are really unexplainable. Sometimes, we have to undergo long and difficult process just to understand all the reasons why such things happen to us. Even if we did our best and tried to be near perfect, even if we already sacrificed a lot of things just for people to be happy, we just still have to experience heartbreaks and pain. I expected all of these things to happen to me but I did not expect that they will all happen soon and at this very moment.

I didn't expect na hahantong lahat to sa ganito. Or should I say, na ganitong kabilis mangyayari to and na siya mismo ang gagawa nito. Nakakahiya, sa totoo lang.

He cheated on me. Yes, it's true. Kahit ako, I didn't expect na magagawa nya yun. Ako pa pwede. Pero siya? Now I know na a woman's instinct cannot really go wrong. He's been in a relationship with another girl for about four months now. I had really no idea about it. Una kasi, I have so much trust on him. Second, wala din sa personality nya na ganun. Third, nde ko naisip na magagawa yun nung girl sa akin.

There's this one girl friend kasi of ours (actually, co-worker nya yun) na I got to text with before (I think the last time was December, last year) We haven't seen each other much but we were able to meet for about 3 - 4 times. We're not that close but I can say na okay kami as friends. We even planned to watch UAAP games this coming season since she's from UP - LB. Until one time, nde na sya nagreply sa kahit anung text message ko. I was really bothered during those times na iniignore nya yung mga messages ko,(kasi by nature, ganun ako) knowing na natatanggap nya naman yung mga yun. So I felt na there's something wrong going on. Ever since kasi, nagseselos na talaga ako dun sa girl na yun eh. It's not because I am insecure about her but because i believe that she's a threat to our relationship. I texted her again to the point na kinukulit ko na talaga sya para lang magreply sa akin. I even asked their other friends if they know the reason about it. Nobody can't tell me besides this one friend whom I was able to chat with last Sunday. She told me alot of things about that girl and also about my boyfriend. I did not believe her that easily pero sinakyan ko sya sa mga sinasabi nya to check if my thoughts are true. She said na dapat maging observant ako about my boyfriend, bla bla. Hindi ko na pinansin yung mga bagay na yun kasi ang gusto ko talaga ay yung makausap ko mismo yung girl na yun. Until yesterday night, she finally replied to one of my messages. Hindi ko sya mahingan ng info.na mismong manggagaling sa kanya. She just said na if I have questions, I should go ask her now. So kahit nde ako prepared or what, prinangka ko na din sya. We've texted so many times. I've learned alot of things about the situation and most of all, all of my questions were finally answered that time..

Ayun, I've learned na she and Lhon have a relationship for about four months now (kaya pala sometimes mei kakaiba kay lhon). She said na it's not just a "relationship" for fun but relationship with committment (which means na nagtwo-time si lhon). She also said na they text each other everyday, using their Globe sims (na hindi ko man lang naisip na mei possibilityng ganun nga) and that sometimes, they see each other outside of their work. Honestly, when I heard that, I felt no anger against them. I didn't even cry about what I heard. I even told the girl na she should not worry about it (esp. about losing lhon in her life) and that I am the one who's gonna tell him that I already know it. She even said na she knows that she won't lose lhon even if I tell him about it. So from that statement, it seems that they have already built a strong and serious relationship na hindi na masisira pa - kahit ako.

I was not able to sleep that much last night and I felt so much anxieties esp. when I woke up. I talked to him immediately about it and he admitted naman na totoo lahat yun.

Hindi ko alam kung ano yung dapat kong ireact sa situation na ganun. It haven't even sinked in yet until this moment. All I know is that I am so angry about them. And that I still love Lhon so much. Ever since I am not a strong person and that I have to be one so naisip ko na eto na yung tamang pagkakataon para maipakita ko sa buong mundo na kaya ko. Pero everytime naiisip ko yung mga nangyari, I tend to go back to my real personality. It always make me realze that I can't be strong - ever.

All I want to know this time is the reason why he did that to me. Alam kong a big part of that was also beacuse of me since I've done alot to him. Pero ako lang ba lalaga alhat yun? Is it all my fault na ganun yung nangyari?

I love him so much. I don't want to lose him. We've shared alot of things. For two years, I was able to feel that I am special. I was able to have confidence about my future because I know that he'll be there for me and we'll be living together until we die.

It hurts me knowing that all of those were just lies - lies which made me hope for a thing that can never really happen.

I just wish they'll have a good life together. No hurt feelings whatsoever. No bitterness. I hope that they'll be happy and that they will not become like what we were when we were still together.

I love Lhon so much and I want him to be happy. I don't want to see him experience the same things he had with me.

So Nessa, can I ask you one favor?

Would you please take care of my BY for me? :'(

All things in this life are really unexplainable. Sometimes, we have to undergo long and difficult process just to understand all the reasons why such things happen to us. Even if we did our best and tried to be near perfect, even if we already sacrificed a lot of things just for people to be happy, we just still have to experience heartbreaks and pain. I expected all of these things to happen to me but I did not expect that they will all happen soon and at this very moment.